I haven't done much of anything lately other than play World of Warcraft. Sorry. I have a lot of ideas (though most of them are for stories and I'm close to jumping ship) so I'm not exactly what I'll be working on next. Every time I try to set a goal or "plan" on doing something, I do the complete opposite, don't make the deadline I've set, etc. etc.

I wish I was born with more motivation. At least I'd have a fucking portfolio together and be trying to move forward with something instead of sitting around feeling sorry for myself and putting it off. I'm not unhappy, exactly - this is one of the best years of my life, considering I've gotten my social security money and whatnot, finally feeling like an adult - I'm just greedy and I want more. More more more. And right now. I'm lonely. I want a family of my own, but that's not turning out the way I want. I want to go to college, but I can't stand in a checkout line at Kohl's without having a freakout, so that's not going to happen. I'm close to halfway through my twenty's and I feel like I'm fifty - what the fuck is up with that?

Whine whine whine. Everyone is doing it, and I'm sure everyone is tired of hearing it. Point being: I might draw more fan art, I might not. I'm down in a hole, don't hassle me about it. Just for the record, I don't do any of this for popularity - If that was the case, I'd be drawing some stupid Naruto or Harry Potter crap. I do this because I like these things, and whatever comes to mind is what you're going to get. I apologize if it isn't what you want to see, if it's not what you're watching me for, if it isn't good. All of that.

Uh...

This post was originally intended to be short and simple. I don't know what happened to it. I'm going to take a nap and contemplate strange and wonderful things.